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Where have I been?

Hello! It feels like quite a while since I have sat down and blogged, despite it being an open window on my computer every time I sit here. While I do love blogging and making YouTube videos, I feel like I am at a bit of a crisis point and it is slowly draining my love for it. I wont lie, I have posts written and ready to press publish on and something has been stopping me and I cant quite put it into words, but I will try. 

I have let me set up go and it has slowly got out of control and now my photography set up has just drifted away. I was so excited about last years set up and always wanted to take so many pictures and I was in my element and I don't know how to find it again, but this week, rest assure I am going to get back in the zone with the photos. I find it so hard as when I am not happy with them I don't want to upload them. This has not just slowed my blog content but also my Instagram content too. I am so excited to clear off my desk this week and set up what can be a 'permanent' set up for flat lays and always be ready to take some Instagram and blog worthy pictures. 

I am also struggling with the weather, I had planned to be knee deep in spring content by now, yet the weather man is threatening snow again and I just don't think I can cope if we get more snow. I want nice light spring jackets, lighter pastel colours and nice cute ballet flats. Yet here we are in oversized jumpers, thick coats and pretending we aren't getting frost bite when the wind blows. I have got so many outfits I want to film for a look book and now I feel like half the stuff is redundant as its been and gone in shops, yet its been too cold to wear any of it! 

I am also having a hard time with my make up. I feel so weighed down in life at the minute and I feel like I am so restricted and like I have no control over my sense of style and like I am constantly censoring myself, it takes out all the want I have to be creative. I mean, I have nothing to sensor in a way but I feel like I am trying to conform to something that I end up not wearing make up, I dress in whatever the first thing is that is clean rather than styling an outfit. I feel like I have had all the creative freedom I have taken away from me and restricted and its lead me to not post on social media as much as I always feel I can't post about the things I want to post about. A ramble, and not much sense but I don't want to fully say what I mean as it might come back to bite me. 

I feel like I am ready to get back into blogging now, and I am loving making videos, so expect a lot more content coming your way this year as I am determined to get over this hurdle and make sure it doesn't break me! I would love to know what you guys have been up to lately and if you ahve an recommendations of things you want to see on here! 

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